Hey everyone how’s it going?
So in this blog post I just wanted to talk about the anxiety I have that Inventively makes the blushing worse and the life-saving times I spent hidden away in the walk-in wardrobe. 🙁
SO LET’S TALK ABOUT THE ANXIETY BEHIND THE BLUSHING
If you happen to land on this blog and indeed this blog post I hope this story resonates with you, and I hope you stay to read more of my posts in your quest to help cure your blushing and possibly your anxiety too.
You see I used to be on medication to help with my depression, panic attacks, anxiety and blushing. But I eventually found a natural cure or cures which you can find out blushing cure here and panic anxiety cures here.
So medication from the doctors helped me deal with life, everyday life that a normal person leads but that came with a price as I would feel tired spaced out living like a zombie. But to feel sort of normal it had to come at a price right? so if these tablets helped me then that was the price I would pay. I was living life as a zombie, but I was at least living.
But there had to be another way right?
My anxiety took me to levels that you NORMAL people wouldn’t believe, I’m not suicidal or have suicidal thoughts, I’m not mental I just think so differently to normal people it’s exhausting…. my brain is like on another level it NEVER switches off relationships and friendships become so complicated.
EVERYTHING becomes so complicated….
I’m with a group of friends at work, we are having a laugh and a joke together I walk off and hear raucous laughter…are they laughing at me? one of them turned around and looked at me and laughed, I think he looked at me, was he laughing at me or not 🙁
Facebook is a big problem, I wrote a post I can see my friends read it, but no likes…but they liked other posts why not mine? they can’t like me:-(
A family picture was posted on Facebook, all the family was tagged in it…..I wasn’t, what’s wrong don’t you like me, don’t you love me, maybe they just forgot me or did they? 🙁
My wife didn’t kiss me this morning…what’s wrong? doesn’t she love me anymore? is she having an affair? 🙁
I am at the swimming pool, dam where’s my 9 year old he can swim… I’ve lost him, what if his drowned, thank god I found him. But now I’m going to be reported for being a bad father, can’t answer the phone may be the police. 🙁
Someone just made a comment about me on Facebook. said I was the weird man, but he’s a friend, does he know about my anxiety? is he being horrible, is he just joking, maybe he hates me, maybe he’s not really my friend… 🙁
Oh, Christ, I’m feeling really red, they are looking at me laughing….I’m sure someone said look how red Zach is. 🙁
I question myself all the time am I doing this right? am I good enough for anything anyone?
I’m expected to act normal at work but how can I? I’m an insomniac from the lack of sleep fighting all the questions I have in my mind going stir crazy I NEVER relax NEVER switch off.
I eat junk food, comforting food pile on weight but it makes me feel better 🙁
Anxiety is EVIL
I don’t want to shout it from the rooftops, but I don’t want to be seen as a freak I hide it well but it’s like being in my own personal prison, Doctors don’t understand well normal ones don’t and people I confide in they don’t understand.
I used to have a walk-in wardrobe in my house it was my sanctuary I used to hide away in there for hours with my snacks and alcohol no one could see me or talk to me. When the alcohol took over I would actually get some sort of sleep, BUT plagued with intense nightmares not knowing what was real what wasn’t.
I spent many hours in that wardrobe, it was my safe place, my thoughts became confined to that wardrobe….the anxiety was less intense in that wardrobe and it was my saviour.
AND THEN THE CHRONIC BLUSHING STARTED
So I have always had excessive Anxiety for as long as I could remember, and this blog is mainly about blushing but this post is more about the anxiety behind the blush and I believe my blushing and Anxiety are linked.
I recall that my blushing started around 25 years ago, I know I had anxiety but I don’t know how the blushing manifested I have had my thoughts and theories but don’t know exactly. We discuss blushing in many posts on this blog so make sure you have a good look around as there are some interesting posts, and also my personal stories and my cures for blushing and Anxiety.
I think though that my chronic blushing started off as normal blushing but because of my Anxiety manifested into severe blushing. You see I developed a fear of blushing and then started to get a red face in literally EVERY situation you could think of.
But then I found a cure for my blushing which taught me to kind of rewire my brain and that helped with the Anxiety to. And I also found ways to deal with the panic attacks I was getting so you can read that here to.
I suffered in silence for years, I suffered without help for years it doesn’t have to be that way. Go to the doctors read up on the internet read this blog but please don’t be afraid to reach out for the help you need.
All the best
Zach